CONTENT WARNING: Abuse, abuse trauma.
Miss T was one of the first clients that really solidified my love for boudoir and had my mind wondering if THIS genre was my true path. Here’s her story. I think you’ll understand why.
“Posting this in hopes it reaches someone who needs to see it…
Honesty is the best policy so, at the risk of sounding arrogant, I’m going to say I’m attractive. Beautiful. Hot. MILF. Whatever your word of choice may be. I’ve always been seen that way. And, I’m honest enough to say it made things very difficult for me as a woman. I’m sure that sounds a little off, but hear me out. I was always “that girl.” The one dating the hot football player, the one who could get every drink paid for at the bar, whatever. For so long, and so consistently, that I grew up believing my worth was in my looks. I matured into a lady believing, genuinely, that was all I had to offer anyone. 
By 25, I had been abused at the hands of my “boyfriend,” violently, then abandoned, cheated on, beat up, lied to… Whatever. You name it, I saw it. And still sadly, I thought my value was in my appearance. If I can just be prettier, I thought…
I don’t say any of that to get the “oh I’m so sorry” statements. I say that because it’s CRUCIAL that women are taught, or learn, that their outward appearance is not the object, but the reflection. I started learning it when I was about 30. I left my abusive boyfriend for the last time. I started believing I was better than what I’d allowed myself to believe. I started working out to feel good about my effort, not to be skinnier or to turn more heads. I started wearing makeup to feel confident. And wouldn’t you know the more worthy I was on the inside, the more attractive I was in my own eyes on the outside? 
Almost two years ago, I did a shoot with Paige. I was (and still am) single. It was for ME. I wanted to see me through a lens that sees beauty. I wasn’t gifting my photos, I didn’t do it for my man. I’d done enough of that in 30 some years. I did it as a way to see myself in a way I never had before- a woman who was beautiful on the outside only because she felt that way on the inside. It was ZERO about sexy photos and 100% about being sexy and feeling beautiful from the inside out. My pictures are a lot like my journey. The beginning photos show fear, uncertainty, and uneasy feelings. By the last few, I knew I was as beautiful as God created me to be – and it showed. 
Paige has such a spirit about her; she will draw out exactly what she needs to in order to give her people the experience. I went into it with a photographer in front of me, and left with a friend who can capture my being exactly how it should be captured: beautifully. My hope is that every woman on earth gets a moment like I had, where they can see themselves how they were meant to be seen. Before the ugly filters of inadequacy, self hate, and unhappiness grab hold. 
Thank you, Paige, for being you. ”
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Omg i love this! All of it! And i am a baker, well was until my accident. The hand prints on the booty i loooooove it. You are gorgeous, i van see it in your eyes. I dont know you but im proud of you!